Pink cupcakes do not make you a better writer

So Im looking over the research proposal I've been working on for a hundred years and finally turned in a week or so ago (oh no I can't go back. That part is done.) and I see all these really awful mistakes and just some really bad writing. Im just wondering how does one learn to write better?
I mean, I know there were some good parts and hey its not supposed to be some great work of "Literature" with a capital 'L' but do you know how many times I rewrote that thing? What does one do to transform their work from mediocre to: this is what I really want to say, the ideas are all clearly connected, here's what other people think and what I think about their thoughts, but here is where my arguments are developed, here is something insightful, and I want to use pretty words...is that too much to ask of myself? I'm feeling like I have to relearn to write and I have to get over the anxiety of showing my writing to someone who will give me some constructive feedback.

I'm sure some of becoming a better writer also has to do with focusing on being an "academic" writer a little more than being a documentary producer/technological storyteller...but I want to do both. Oh and I want to continue to be a poet and performer. And oh yeah I have to develop some money making career at some point. Can't I just reconcile it all? And soon? I am slated to present on a panel called "Rethinking the Central American Left in the Era of Globalization" at LASA in Montreal in the Fall.. (it'd be nice if I could write well and get the funds to go) I mean I'm a good presenter but I would like to write a paper that could be submitted at least to the conference publication. I even had an opportunity to submit it as part of a central american american reader but its probably too late by now.
Are there books I should read? Should I quit complaining and keep writing? Should I find a 'Mento' and be someones 'Manatee' (mentee)? Did anyone see 30 Rock with "Oprah" at the source awards? Maybe a little of all of the above put it in a blender, add some pink cupcakes, a dictionary, some academic journals and its a wrap.

INCITE! Book release

I heard the event in SF was amazing! Packed and full of beautiful energy. I will be performing at the event in Oakland at Mills College March 8th with a crew of amazing performers. Im so honored to be a small part of this event.

Reggaeton

Saw this blog about someone teaching and doing research about reggaton. Thought it was interesting and wanted to make sure I remembered to go back to it when I dont have so much reading and writing to do.
http://reggaetonica.blogspot.com/

Friendraiser Pictures

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More movies I recommend

"Camaron" This is an amazing movie. Period. It will make you laugh and want to dance and want to inject flamenco into your blood.





Mi Mejor Enemigo: Best movie ever! See it see it see it! It will make you laugh and will move you and inspire you to understand how wars are invented and are fought by young people who believe in their mythology... I met one of the actors coolest Chileans I have ever met


Amando a Maradona: FUTBOL FUTBOL..Yes my friends Futbol is a religion...





Al Otro Lado: This movie is beautiful. It moved me. yes people I cried. If anyone has any doubts about the necessities, tragedy but hopefulness of migration in many parts of the world see this movie. It will change you. The Cuban part of the story could have been more developed but other than if the end of this movie doesnt move you then you must check your pulse.

Movies I've seen that I recommend

I just saw this movie last night I HEART THIS MOVIE!!! You think you know the story of Romeo and Juliet but this is just a great movie. Funny, intense, beautiful such a fun movie! "Romeo and Juliet get Married" from Brazil




I met the actor from this film Damian Alcazar is he such a cool guy! So talented. He's been in movies like El Crimen de Padre Amaro, Cronicas, La Ley de Herodes y un monton mas...
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